But I am heading out in a few days. I haven’t bought any swim trunks, but I’m sure they have clothing for sale down there, right? I guess I can Google that shit later. I am looking forward to the trip, but it is coming at a time where I’m feeling pretty conflicted on what to do. We booked the trip a while ago, and now that I’m home, Paul isn’t doing well, and I feel like I’m abandoning my family. Before everyone gets on here and tells me that I’m an idiot, let me finish. I know I’m not abandoning anyone, but it feels like I got home from out west, just to turn around and bugger off for another week. It’s one of those damned if you do, damned if you don’t. I also don’t have a job lined up, so I’m feeling a little lazy about that as well. I know that once I get down there and feel the warm sun on my cocoa butter soaked skin, I will forget all about my woes and troubles and just melt into the salty depths. If we weren’t going down with the couples that we are, I would probably be fairly depressed the whole time, but they really are four of the nicest, most fun people we could have picked. It’s nice when you instantly feel comfortable around people that you haven’t known for a great number of years, because then you know that they aren’t going to slip some acid in your drink, send you into a crowded foreign city and then follow you from a distance, while laughing heartily as you freak out. Well, unless they are con artists. I guess they are trained to make you feel comfortable around them, and then they completely screw you around. Hey, wait a minute. I wonder if they are a bunch of grifters, just waiting to take advantage of a poor country boy like me? Baby, we had better keep our eyes open on this trip.
To be quite honest with you, I really couldn’t give a shit where I go for the week, as long as I’m going with Mrs. B. We could be just going up to the hunt camp for a few days, and touring around central Ontario and I’d be just as happy. The only real reason we are going to a tropical destination is because she loves heat, sun and beaches, and it’s probably cheaper than getting hotels around here. I’ve never done an all inclusive before, so I guess it won’t hurt to try it, and we are doing another eastern Canada trip for our honeymoon, so this will be just the right get away for us to recharge. I know it seems like I’m never working, but for some reason, I’m tired as hell. I can’t wait to just relax, and not have any reason to get out of bed in the morning, night, or afternoon. I plan on cocooning for at least five hours a day, and sleeping for at least eight, so that will give me eleven hours to eat, drink and be merry. We are going to have so many epic dates that it will maybe help make up for all of the time that I was gone. For Mrs. Birdman, I mean. I had epic dates with Chin almost every night when we were in camp. I think she only had a few the whole time. She deserves a whole bunch more.
She really does deserve all that I can give, and more. She is far and away the most thoughtful, kind, selfless, trusting, and loving woman I’ve ever been with. I wonder every day how I got so lucky to bag a AAA grade lady like her, and just as often I think of how I’m going to keep her. It’s one of those wonderful times in your life that you are with someone that you appreciate more than anyone has ever appreciated another human being, and they feel the exact same way. I find myself always trying to make her happy, because there is nothing that I love more than seeing her beautiful smile on her beautiful face. Anyone who knows her, knows what I’m talking about. When she is really happy, she can light up a room with her luminescent aura. It seeps into every shadow, and lights up every face in the room. It’s miraculous, brilliant, and fantastic, but best of all, it’s mine. I get to feel it’s warmth and it’s magnificence every day, and I don’t think that I’ll ever get used to it. For that I am thankful.
The day I get used to it, is the day that I will start taking it for granted, and inevitably losing it. No, I think I will keep finding new ways to adore her. To get high on her sparke. To love her unconditionally. I can honestly say that I have met my perfect match, in every way that I can think of, and I never want to lose that. I never want to see her cry, and even though I know she will, I must make sure that I’m never the cause of her sorrow. I’ve already agreed not to die before she does, so there’s that part of the equation taken care of. I guess that I just need to look after the girls and protect them well enough to last longer than we do. I think I was born to do these types of things anyhow, so I’m glad that I will finally be able to fulfill my destiny.
I almost feel like my life can’t get more perfect than it is right now. I come from such a caring, loving family, and just when I am starting to think that it’s going to be the defining part of me, I meet this sensational woman, with tremendous kids, and I am embarking on a journey to find my own tiny slice of paradise. I know that finding my calling, career-wise would be the cherry on top of this sundae, but I gotta tell ya. If I have to work in a factory for the rest of my life to support these three ladies of mine, I’ll still die ten times happier than 99% of the rest of the world, and that’s all right by me.
Mama told me that some day it would happen, but she never said that it would happen like this,